Why Do White Republicans Think So Little Of African Americans? ?

I am white & grew up around a variety of people. I grew up in a racially mixed area & heard more black people say the N word than white which was brought out in the open thanks to the Imus situation....at a certain point most white people had moved towards the county away from the area I lived in the city & someone mixed me up with my white best friend who was a trouble maker. I got beat up but a black friend was the one who ran to get my parents for me...I wondered why I was never racist & I have been around many who are. I think they just grow up around people who talk a certain way & are creatures of habit & not new thinkers...I was brought up in a home where my parents were good to all people....I went to public school where we were taught to respect each other. Also, true religion not going to church & told who is better than someone else....but I remembered what may have really caused me to love people...I saw so much growing up in the city & we finally were going to move on to be near some of our old friends who had moved to the county which was really nice & my parents didn't know if it was safe for me in the city.....Living in the city sitting on my porch I remember a black family with some tall boys who were great dressers. My mother loved to see what color suit they would wear to church on Sunday. They wore yellow, red, every color that was the style then....one day before we moved I was outside when a white boy who was always in trouble with the law drove down the street so fast, he stold a car & didn't have his liscence....As this speeding care went down the street the sister of the stylist young church goers had just crossed the street. She ran quick & then noticed that what she hadn't noticed was her little sister who had turned 2 on that day had followed her but didn't make it accross......My husband took a pillow & had it curled up to rest on the other day & this accident was 40 years ago & when I saw that pillow I remembered little Lisa in the street curled up like that pillow.....It has never left my mind nor the love I have for this family & the logical lesson that just because someone is white doesn't mean they can't steal a car & cause pain.....My mother took me to visit the family & they were so beautiful...I remember my mother wanting to make conversation asked about the boys dressing up for church & their mother said "No, not anymore, they won't go to church". So that is maybe what makes me think of how stupid anyone can be if they don't see how we are all in this together. Our country has been hi-jacked by greedy people & the color of their skin doesn't make them any better than anyone else....It is so hard for me to understand. I have had some mistreatment by black people through the years & I focus on love no matter what. I know they see me as if I am someone who wants to hurt them so instead of fighting back I treat them with love so I don't know what to think of people of any race who can't understand it is our test, in how we treat others not by outer things but by inner & if we are racists we fail the test.